Unimportant because mother and grandmother are always comparing me to another person why can't they compare someone to me. That makes me feel like I am not special and like no one wants to be compared to me. Mother and grandmother don't seem to understand that it hurts my feelings. I also don't tell them that because it's a way of grieving for them. They love to think of me as my father but I just want them to think of me as me.

Disconnected because the more I try to be closer to father I feel further from mother. Me and my mother have never had the closest relationships but ever since my father died I feel like she doesn't want me. We barely talk to each other. When I go out she doesn't even ask me where I am going and the makes me feel like she wouldn't care if something happened to me.

Disconnected