October 3 - Day 5

Today is the day I will have Stefan killed. I can't wait to look him in the eye and see how sorry he is for hurting me. I do not regret wanting to kill him at all. My father Julius was furious and said that he will have this worthless plebeian killed at sunset in front of all the Roman people. I'm sure that my father would kill him with his own bare hands if he saw him right now. I wonder how I will feel after my guards have killed him.
I just arrived back from having Stefan killed and I feel so cold inside. I know I said that I would feel nothing once he was killed. If only I could take back everything and just let him go on with his life. he took a part of my heart with him when I watched him die. There is nothing I want more than to have him back with me and to feel his touch. The pain I felt when he left me amounts to nothing when compared to the pain that I am feeling right now. If I could tell Stefan anything, it would be that I am so sorry for everything I have done and that I cannot wait to see him in our next life. I will never forget you Stefan, I love you and farewell.