October 1 - Day 3

I just got back from seeing Stefan, I am completely shattered and torn into pieces. He says he loves me but he is not willing to take the risk of being killed for my love. He looked at me with anger for even wanting to make a future with him. I would give up anything for him and he has no idea. I had a life planned for us. I feel lost, confused, and alone. I wish he would only see our love through my own eyes.
Maybe I am being unrealistic and our love will never workout. I had always hoped that maybe I could speak to my father and make things right. Who am I kidding, I would be killed right there on the spot. I will have to learn how to be strong. For now, I will lay in my bed and cry for the rest of the night.